my little paradise...

I was scared...scared of my own thoughts, the things i felt. Didnt know a better way to express what i felt was in doubt then.It hurt because i have been sure all along..even when other people told me in sterner voices that i was likely to stumble even on silk.It was a time for doubting,a time for unpleasant questions and cruel answers.That was a time when i doubted myself as a person. I started searching for answers that i only knew. I only succeeded in confusing my mind, my ears and my heart.Those three long months of silence.Every day was a struggle.But believed that there will be other times too.

Today was a beautiful day .Even with my eyes still closed I could feel the warmth . The rays enveloped me with a hug- the hug of sunshine. A calm breeze rustles the boughs of an overhanging tree and the view outside was the beautiful i have seen in a long time.I saw those little grey balls of fur with unopened eyes and menacing soft mews ..so calm and clear that you
fear your very presence is an intrusion.They spent hours cuddled up together, dreaming, chasing imaginary mice, watching the rain,indelicate contempt of a world that included them.

I have said something of what I came to say. Let the words that were not said be remembered. Thanks to you!